How is it, that when one person feels elated, ecstatic, excited – other heart feels no emotion?  I have come to believe that this world is in actually a disjointed network of broken thoughts. All this talk of sharing your feelings is hogwash, because even if you do – can your thoughts ever actually really penetrate the other persons layer of sentiments.

No, they cant, your words just hover around his ear, with a few of them actually hitting his heart and brain but nothing so strong as to shake him out of his comfort zone and get him in your realm. You and your emotions are always alone, people will listen, offer advice, but not one, and I mean it, not one of them will ever truly understand your situation.

So this expectation to feel better and expect the opposite person to be as moved as you – is futile. You have to learn to share your feelings only with yourself, ask your inner self – what am I to do, how do I feel better, and only you will give the answer.

I spent many years of my life waiting for the right man, who would truly understand my hopes, dreams and fears, I always found a listening ear but I never found a heart that truly embraced and felt the pulse of my emotion. And I kept getting hurt and hoping that maybe some day I will find a man who will understand me and love me the way I am meant to be loved.

Bull shit – all of this.

Stop living in this hope, cause you will never find a person who will get as close to you as your inner self. So this eternal wait should end, right now and right here – as you read this.

Only you can save yourself, so instead of hooking hopes from the encased and mental covered men of today – start talking to yourself. And you will find bliss, all this frustration that why he didn’t understand my chaos or confusion will end, because you will no more seek for answers. You will be a complete circle in your self and the outside world’s existence will no more matter.